Denise & Lindsey's Space

Well guys I took a little time off this blog after the competition ended.  I just was kind of busy and life happened who doesn't know how that is?  Anyway last night's episode was really good I loved the two eliminations.  I was happy to see Hoop Earrings and Eyeshadow AKA Maggie go home and actually didn't mind brittany leaving either.  Honestly i'm not really rooting for anyone last season I had my hollie but this season there's no front runner in my book.  AnywayI saw on the BL website that they are accepting apps for individuals I totally want to apply but i'm not a member of the biggest loser online club.  I think I might apply for season 7 as long as they are casting individuals.  I know it's a long shot but I think it would be a really fun experience to do.  Any it honestly is exactly what I need.  I need to focus on myself for once instead of worrying about how everyone else in my life is doing.  Maybe i'll get there on my own someday but being on BL would be like a dream come true to me.  And I know there are alot of naysayers out there that say if you're ready when you apply to be on the show you should be ready in real life.  But those same exact people should know that it's not all roses when you're losing weight at home.  It's hard and challenging and definitely easier (not easy) on campus.  Well I still want to do my dating blog it's good stuff I swear but for now the dog needs to poop.  Have a great night guys!!!

Well all it's been reallly fun and it's all about to end in a little bit.  Our fates have been decided whether or not we win the personal trainer for a year.  I know that personally we have no chance at winning however I still hold hope.  Our page has been boring but I think our blogs have been pretty good.  That episode of the Biggest Loser tonight was awesome!!!  I will say that I never got to my dating blog but the jist of it was that Dating while fat sucks!!!  Anyway I wish everyone good luck and to the people judging this PICK US PICK US PICK US!!!  HAHA you knew I had to add that right.  Anyway congratulations to all who participated and succeeded and to all who participated and didn't succeed i'm right there with you and honestly it doesn't matter if we did it yesterday, do it today, or plan to do it tomorrow it's the same struggle and journey for everyone and whenever we do end up taking it it will be just as hard as the journey that everyone else has been working on.  I know that i'm ready for the end result of losing weight and i'm even ready to put the work in necessary, what I need is a motivating factor, I have plenty of things that should motivate me but i'm waiting for that one big kick in the pants to get me moving.  All right guys good luck and good night.   I'm nervous. 

Well guys i'm about to head upstairs for my shift at the pizza shop.  weighed in this morning.  Not good although i've only gained half a pound I haven't lost anything.  I have to recap this past weeks episode of TBL not too bad of one I was glad to see Bernie go although I do'nt really feel myself rooting for anyone to win.  Except Dan but he's been even getting on my nerves a little.  Oh well i'll recap tonight when i'm all done,  I'm also going to write one last long blog on dating and being overweight.  I've been writing it in my head for the past month there's so much I want to say about that topic.  I want that to be my last blog before 3/11 which is MPM judgement day i'm sure Linds and I are not going to win but it's been fun having somewhere to blog and knowing the only people reading it are people facing the same challenges.  HAve a great Saturday guys i'll write more tonight!!

Well guys the million pound match up is coming to an end.  Only8 more days!!.  I must say this journey has been interesting.  My page isn't nearly as flashy as i'd like it to be.  However I think it fits me and Lindsey.  Lindsey and I have had our share of troubles over the last few months.  I'm facing unemployment again soon, linds has had the car debacle to end all car debacles.  Our parents opened and hired us on as workers at their new pizza shop.  And i've been having some personal medical issues that have me stressed to the max.  Especially since I don't have benefits.  However my outlook is bright.  I started journaling recently which hasn't really helped my weight loss but it has helped to put some stuff down on paper that usually i'm too backward to say to anyone.  Anyway I know that linds and I have no chance in heck at winning this thing.  After all there are millions of people out there who have actually lost weight through out this journey.  However I will say thank you to the biggest loser and MSN for putting this challenge up there.  As it may not have been enough for me to get my butt in gear it was enough for alot of people.  And I know my time will come.  The weight loss everyone has had is amazing and you should all be proud of yourselves!!!  I love seeing people succeed and this has definitely been a good thing to be a part of for that.  We will continue to blog so this isn't our official goodbye but we just wanted to say from the bottom of our hearts THANK YOU!!!

Well everybody the Pizza business is in full swing mode right now and honest to goodness as my sister has said we need our own reality show.  Once I get me a full time social work job I fully intend on buying a video camera and putting some mini-sodes on youtube.  Trust me when my family fights we fight.  We're kinda like the Osbournes Meet the Tuttles without the swearing, or the drug use.  So far I have disappointed myself in what I have eaten while working and while not working.  My mother is now running her biz from 10-9 daily so there is no such thing as a home cooked meal.  She's working all day she doesn't have time to cook dinner.  So dinner is a self-prepared pizza or in today's case a dozen wings.  Now I will say this my mother has salads on the menu.  But so far I have not partaken of any leafy greens.  I need to make smarter choices and I know that everybody who reads this blog is sick of me saying this but it's so hard!!!  I also am having some medical issues right now which have not been good for the psyche, so i'm dealing with stress eating which is only in my opinion exacerbating the medical issues.  Anyway the business is good i'm glad that my parents are doing it i'm glad they seem to be making money so far.  However my mother is eating food too which worries me because she's already a type 2 diabetic and recently diagnosed with high blood pressure so this will not be good for her health.  The thing with my mom is she's happy the way she is she doesn't want to lose weight she doesn't try to do anything about it just is happy the way she is.  I wish I could say that.  I'm miserable the way I am I don't like what I see in the mirror and I hate how depressed about my looks I get.  I mean life could be alot worse right?  Oh well I guess we can't change somethings and for me it's stressing about my weight I can't change it it's always going to be there even if I lose weight!!